Nervous, no. I am the calm itself. Excited, definitely.

What would people think if I told them about this situation?

Woke up but still dreaming.

A thought from yesterday that I had just before I fell asleep still bothers me.

Slightly high, sweltering heat, 11am start work. Can't put into words what happened yesterday.

I'm still in this surreality that doesn't seem to be a dream.

First overslept, went to bed late last night.

The day starts well.

I've been listening to a Juice Wrld freestyle all morning.

New Year's Eve. I wake up and I'm still quite depressed, insecure. I will see her again today.